Saying Farewell
I had pretty much completely forgotten about this blog until I was reminded of it last week.
I quit my job. I left my church. I came out to friends and family and faced some rejection. I QUIT MY JOB, without having another job lined up first. And for what?
Early last fall I wrote a letter. The letter was the first step in me reconciling my sexuality with my faith. It was the first time I was truly and completely honest with myself, with God, and with the church (although the church didn’t know it until many, many, many months later). It was freeing and refreshing and I was tempted to just come out to the world all at once on that day.
And then I hit the reality- the church doctrine I had committed to said that I could not be gay and a Christian and have a relationship, and a few of you joined me on the journey to figure it all out and then when I got it mostly figured out I just quit writing. I don’t know who comes and reads this blog, not many people, but apparently there are still people stumbling around somehow landing here.
I probably won’t be writing anymore here- I started this blog specifically to process my sexuality and in light of my faith, and now that I have I don’t know what more I would write. But I didn’t want to leave things hanging.
As previously mentioned, I have come out to my friends and family, I have left my job because I am gay and the church would not allow me to accept this and continue to work there. I have taken a leap of faith and God is providing, although certainly not in the ways I wold have chosen. I am a Christ-follower and I am gay and there is absolutely nothing wrong with this. When I meet someone who I want to date I will date, when I find a woman I want to marry who wants to marry me I’ll get married. I have been incredibly blessed to meet new friends, I have been blessed to have old friends who have chosen to stand by me even though they don’t agree with my conclusions, and I am excited to see what God has in store for me.
Since I don’t know how anyone finds this blog, I don’t know what you are looking for. If you were looking for answers about being gay and Christian check out www.gaychristian.net It’s a wonderful resource with videos, reading materials, and a message board that helped me a lot on my journey and through which I have made some new “real life” friends.
If you are just looking to waste time reading horrible writing and frequently incomprehensible thoughts you can check out my regular blog at www.ponderingwanderer.wordpress.com although even that has been severely lacking in updates lately.
